We took a long break. We couldn’t continue financially, and my heart and body certainly needed time to heal. We wanted to learn to enjoy life again.

We started trying in April 2012. I had been off birth control for 2+ years … so when I say “trying,” I mean OPKs, basal temps, etc. I was hopeful that by tracking ovulation, we’d get pregnant. Unfortunately, my cycle was irregular.

We decided to talk to our doctor who had us try Clomid. This was the first time we were warned about twins (spoiler alert: never happened). 3 failed cycles later, we were referred to a fertility clinic.

After our initial testing, we were diagnosed as unexplained with possible male factor. Eric’s sperm quantity was great, but his morphology was low at 1%. We opted to skip IUI and go straight to IVF w/ ICSI. We started our first round and the docs were surprised at how poorly I was responding. At the retrieval, they got 8 eggs and 4 fertilized. We didn’t know whether any would make it to day 5 so we chose to put in 2 at day 3. Our transfer was difficult; looking back, I’m not surprised that cycle didn’t work, but we were still devastated.

Our doctor encouraged us to jump into round 2, encouraging us that frozen transfer rates were somewhat more successful. The transfer went more smoothly the second time around, though not easy. When that cycle failed, it broke us. We took a long break. We couldn’t continue financially, and my heart and body certainly needed time to heal. We wanted to learn to enjoy life again.

With a new job came the opportunity to try IVF again. At this point, Eric’s morphology had increased to 6% with lifestyle changes. Our fresh cycle yielded 22 follicles, 16 fertilized, and 9 day-5 embryos. We transferred 2, did our head nod routine to the twin lecture, and froze 7. I was sedated for my transfer given our difficult history. Eric lost his job in the midst of this cycle. Unfortunately, once again, IVF failed us.

We moved cities, and with his new job were pleased to find out we still had coverage. We decided to try one final time with the frozen embryos. Our doctor agreed to a full immune protocol given my implantation failure. We transferred 3. We were skeptical but hopeful. 6 days after our transfer, I got a faint positive. One embryo implanted. We now have our miracle baby boy.